I think the theory that we women have Motherly instincts in a bunch of bull, because I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING half the time. I'm just blindly doing what I think is right and hoping for the best. Poor, poor Anson, he is paving the way for his future siblings. Maybe I'll have it down by the second or third child... I can only hope. Why do you think that every Mom parents differently? Why does every Mom have a different opinion and think hers is the right one? The answer is that we are just doing the best we can and we have hope that what has worked for us will work for others, but that's usually not the case. I have close friends and family whom I trust though, thank goodness, otherwise I may not have survived the first week!
Then there are the books and the research which changes or updates EVERY SECOND to make our journey as Mothers even MORE confusing and that make us feel like we're dumb for not parenting that way or this way. Sometimes, people that do the research or write the books aren't even parents. HAH! Do us all a favor and keep your opinions to yourself will ya!? That's the thing though, if we don't have books or research, we have nothing to use as a reference, so maybe we should have those things. It does make the process of Motherhood difficult at times because there are so many options, but it really can help too.
And as if it couldn't get harder, every SINGLE pediatrician out there has a different opinion, trust me I've been to 3 in that last 10 and 1/2 months and I assure you that I have liked them or disliked them for different reasons. Didn't they all learn the same thing at school?! I guess just find one you like and hang on to them for dear life. Thank goodness I found one here in FL that I LOVE and I have one in Idaho that's WONDERFUL as well.
At any rate, some days I feel like I'm a great Mom and others I feel like I'm terrible, like when I get mad or frustrated or when I've had no sleep so I loose my patience easily. I can only hope that I do right by Anson and that he grows into a responsible member of society.